Do you follow what your heart craves?

"What reason weaves, by passion is undone." - Alexander Pope

Weight loss is as much a physical battle as it is a mental battle. Every day that I look in the mirror and see someone I swore I'd never become again is another day that beats me down just that tiny bit more. I get frustrated and want to hit something, throw something, then eat something. Some days are incredibly worse than others, but they all start off on a pretty sour note. I need to keep reminding myself though, that every little bit counts. For every action I take (eating something horribly unhealthy) there's an equal, and sometimes overly intense, reaction (gaining five pounds off a ice cream bar, for example ^_^). Sure, I can eat whatever I want, whenever I want, if I'm willing to put in a couple hours a day at the gym. Sadly, I haven't quite gotten that far yet.

For some time now I've been getting emails from SparkPeople.com and haven't really been paying attention to them. Its been nothing but fresh healthy recipes and new exercise moves and tips on how to maintain a healthy lifestyle. And what have I done? Shunted them all into a separate folder inside my yahoo account, and quietly told myself "I'll get to them later." Hah.

I noticed one of the emails I get all the time is their Healthy Reflections emails. Questions to ask oneself about why, and how, and when, to lose weight. So I thought, why not, and opened the email. Which is how I ended up here, writing this blog.

I love to write. And SparkPeople.com has provided me a challenge to fulfill that love. Even better? It's about self improvement, mental accomplishment and encouragement. Today's topic? Do you follow what your heart craves?

Simple answer? No. I don't.

Not so simple answer? I want to. But I'm not even all that entirely positive what my heart craves. Kinda hard to follow something you don't know you want. So, I'll label this blog PART ONE, and begin to list what my heart craves. And as I slowly begin to check them off, it'll be all new blogs. Yay! More writing! *insert shit eating grin here*

What my heart craves:
Children
A home. Not a house, but an actual home, where I know I'll live until the day I die.
To look in the mirror and be happy with what I see, no matter what it is.
Publish a novel
Live in Ireland for a year...hell, live all over Europe for a year at a time!
Learn Korean
Achieve my Associates. Then my Bachelors.
Own a horse
Be able to run for twenty minutes and not feel like I am going to pass out.
Experience passion that shatters everything around me.
Go out to a LA club and dance the night away.

There's the start to my list...what would you have on yours?