Grrr! Squared

One day into my self assigned blogging journey, and I've already missed a day. How spectacular is that?! In my own defense though, I got pwned. My network went down last night, and after five hours of trying to troubleshoot the damn modem and router, I realized that the lan cable connecting the modem and router wasn't plugged in properly.

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Needless to say, after that, I wasn't really in the mood to blog, or do much of anything that had any remote relation to the internet. Instead, I sat on the couch with BF and played 'find the hidden objects' games for two hours. It was amazingly fun.

But on to the HCG journey, the real reason I'm typing this morning. I last left off with the commencement of my diet on the horizon, but no real feedback on the diet itself, just mostly my research, and emotions on the subject. So let's tackle that portion first.

I set up my journal Monday night, and took measurements and pictures. Not a fun experience, at all. They, being anyone and everyone, who's ever said taking measurements and pictures when you're not a size four is a horrible event was right. I hated standing there, knowing I couldn't suck in my gut or anything to make the picture look better. No posing, no cute expression. Just...stand there, and let the camera record all your flaws. Blech. The measurements were especially awkward, as it's hard hearing that your thighs are so and so inches, or your bicep comes in just a couple inches shy of your neck. But it's over with, for now, so I suppose I should be grateful.

I weighed myself Tuesday morning, and began the drops at 7am. I worked out the timing schedule so that I take 0.6 mL every three hours, for a total of five dosages, instead of the recommended six. I found the five sets works better for me because of my daily schedule, and I'll be able to handle the 30 minutes no eating or drinking better. Yesterday was a resounding success as far as the drops go, except for the last shot at 7pm, but that's because of the internet dealie. Dinner got delayed, which delayed the drops. I was only about an hour behind though, so I'm not too worried.

I tried my hardest to eat foods yesterday that were high in fat, but after restricting my portion sizes for so long, it was hard to eat that much. I've heard that the second load day is the hardest, as the hormone's starting to kick in and it's hard to eat a lot while feeling full. I'm off to a good start today though, so hopefully this won't be too hard.

Tonight I'll have to go out and spend some more money - unfortunately - to get the personal care products and food necessary for the diet. I've definitely spent more on this diet than I'd originally anticipated, but it also comes on the heels of the Super Bowl party, which cost me more than I'd expected also, so I suppose I can't really complain. Upshot is I now have a weight scale, a food scale, and a snazzy new binder for when I start building my cookbook ^_^

I weighed in this morning, and according to the scale I've gained two pounds since yesterday, but I don't know how much of that is the wet hair from my shower, and the jeans I had on when I finally remembered to weigh myself. I'm surprisingly okay with the gain, and didn't feel as guilty yesterday eating all the foods as I thought I would. After reading all these testimonials on the MHP site about people saying how the load days were so hard for them, I was expecting to feel horrible for being able to eat as much as I have been. Instead though, I've mostly been enjoying the experience, and don't feel any remorse. I think that has a lot to do with the drops though. In my mind, I know that I'm taking steps to lose weight, and I'm going to lose everything I will/have gained over these two days, so it makes it easier for me.

I'm mostly excited about tomorrow and the rest of this week. I'm looking forward to portioning out food tonight and spending most of my time in the kitchen, working out meal plans and setting aside serving sizes. I'll have to get creative for BF's portioning, but I can handle that. I'm going to stick with a weigh in every day, and just keep reminding myself in the back of my mind that the scale's going to fluctuate, and I'll just have to be okay with that. Thursday will see my first VLCD day, with the 500 calorie diet, and I'm curious to see if I'll experience the hunger pangs some people have talked about. If I'm honest with myself, I'm hoping for a large loss tomorrow or Friday, but I know it'll probably only be a pound or two. But, but! I'll take what I can get.

On a completely different track, I took my first set of drops this morning as soon as I woke up, as it's really the only time I can successfully pull off the drops with the alloted 15 min wait time before and after without being late to work. I'd already received the go ahead from the MHP staff that taking the drops immediately after waking was safe, so I wasn't worried about it, but damn if I didn't expect the taste. After taking the drops yesterday, I'd become used to the slightly medicinal taste, along with the slight numbing sensation. This morning though? Morning breath and HCG drops do not make a good combination. I was extremely grateful though when I could finally brush my teeth and take a drink of water, so I suppose that's okay. Heh.

I'm happy to report that I haven't really found any other unpleasant side affects of the hormone. I don't feel light headed, or sick to my stomach, or have an achy chest from the changes going on in my body. I'm still me, just with an extra bit of hormone that's going to help me lose the extra bit of me I don't want. Sounds like a plan!